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long time coming
I have my own little space, without the constant trembles of a trolley train though there persists a constant hum wherever I go.
Halloween has passed and now I count the days till it becomes a new year where I do not have to think of the residual fear from past holidays that had burnt holes into my mind. I spent my weekends in the city and wandered around crying at the forceful remembrance of the loneliness attached to all of the tacky decor that makes this time of year such a horror. How alarming it must have been to witness someone such as me cry uncontrollably till the well ran dry and turned to laughter.
Painfully I am aware of how it might look and it is not a bother rather it is a distraction from the work I must do within that is the root of my peculiar behavior. Self-awareness is a step in the correct direction and I think it is time to take it a step further to welcome in external help