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pain deep beneath
no tool to uncover
the cortisol seeping
& mast cells clustering
from within marrow,
then,
out toward the surface;
is it not insanity
to live within a body
whose denied reality?
tests often conceal
cancer that exists
veiling as mast cells
filling every crevice
that reside within our nooks,
as the world aims its weapons
wherever our heads may rest;
with histamine leaking
our corner is no more
with a wall festering
forevermore.
bringing me closer
i dont feel alone anymore.
i savor every part of you
when you allow me to;
youre from another universe
how else is your taste
nothing like the familiar?
no grasp on restfulness,
your soul tight in my chest—
wont you forgive me
for this high i get off you?
youre a heavy substance
rewiring my loopy head
who once denied that
my pain & memory
exist tangibly
without dictatorship.
i see you perpetually
as my passion grows
directly toward you
then gains new root
to give passion to the child
existing inside myself,
that was tortured
yet wouldnt tell.